I’ll admit it. I am a control freak. I don’t necessarily boss everyone around. Instead, I try to control every aspect of my life. I strive to know all the details and plan ahead. Then, I fret, worry, and overthink…
I am unfortunately prone to a pattern of giving my problems to God, then immediately picking them back up and refusing to let them go. Over the years I have e learned that God doesn’t always answer my prayers when and how I ask, I’ve also seen how He always shows up and acts on my behalf. In fact, when I look back on my life I see countless times where He has worked His good plans even out of seemingly bad situations. Yet, my obsessive need to find a solution on my own persists. Instead, I need to trust God. Trust is letting go.
I’ll be honest, this has been a tough week. I have had another relapse of an infection I have been fighting for close to 3 months. My husband can’t hear out of one ear due to a previous illness. And the doctors just don’t seem to have answers for either one of us. Then yesterday, a close friend was in a motorcycle accident and is now fighting for his life. But despite the storms raging all around us, I still have faith that God is good, even when life feels gloomy.
My grandmother always used to say, “Life is like a rollercoaster.” Now that I am older, I can definitely see her wisdom in this simple statement. Life is awesome, Then it’s awful. And then it’s amazing again. And in between it’s an ordinary accustomed routine. So how do we find peace in the middle of all the turmoil?
Your mood can be renewed with an attitude of gratitude!
If you are struggling to find a smile, or merely feeling as if you are walking through the monotony of life, try creating a gratitude list.
